p.s i love you

2010-05-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

IM SO KANYANG TODAY. my mum endulge me withlots of foods. My fav food to be exact. MakluMLAH GAJI KALI AH. Aku ckp aku tSLIUR CENDOL saja tu. HOW LOVELY is my mum. AND YEAH AKU STRESS AND MARAH TD! INAPROPRIATE JUA MUN KU CKP SNI. pasal keaiban urg bh. Ganya sasak ku how ia treat aku BADLY atu. SIAL LAH MUKA NYA TD ATU. oRG GILA TA JUA BNR.

2010-05-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

I GOT SO STRESS AGAIN.. SHIT.. THIS THING HAD BEEN IN MY MIND SINCE FOREVER.. and now, ada something that i keep on holding into... 'we will never know whose real and who is not'...

2010-04-21T03:08:00.001-07:00

STRESS KU!!!

2010-04-01T10:26:00.000-07:00

AFTER A LONG LONG LONG BUSY WEEK!!!

im back! and im really exhausted.. semua badan sakit.. kengalehan.. banyak sangat bah kerja ahh.. assignment lagi.. presentation lagi.. btw, i got BE - 41/50, Marketing - 73/100 and P&O - 43/100.. 1 FAILED!!! sudah ku blajar banar2 tuu.. smpai ku hafal semua lagi! ada 1 sajaa.. aku salah jawab.. jawapan nombor 4 aku jawab arah nombor 6.. kalau inda pass dah tuu! shittttt!! terpaksa resit neeee =/ ANDDDDDD kamuuuuu, I AM OFFICIALLY BROKE 2 DAYS AFTER PAYDAY! ISNT THAT GREAT?? hahahaha.. btw, my work kena add up lagi to updating the group's facebook and next is the website! they even plan to buy me a full set of pc with broadband so that i can update the group's facebook.. crazy right? hahahaha.. i think, next week ada sudah the pc and the broadband.. ahhhhh and aku lupa! ada 1 lagi my work.. which is to invite as many as i can for PE's funday! cana kan tu aa.. im hoping i'll get like 400+ if possible.. DO YOU GUYS WANNA COME?? *hint2 hahahaha.okay then.. its 1.33am. and i need to go to work in less than 6hours. PANDA EYES neeeee~~~

2010-03-10T04:43:00.000-08:00

AKU BLOG PASAL ITU SABRINA & AIDAH IS THE VERY PUSHING2 HAHAHA

aku is very busy for this whole week and next week.. maybe i'll not be able to online or chitchatting with you guys.. BUT as you can see, you can always SMS me rightt? whats the use of hp mun inda digunakan? lurus jaaa? eshhhh!

btw, esuk saya swimming! tapi aku takut aku tinggalam haha howw?? lets figure it out esuk! kalau pakai pelampung okay tu. dont you think? hahaha ;p pelampung dolphin as they say..

her story, xoxo

2010-03-05T12:13:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS LYRICS SO I WILL SHARE IT WITH YOU.

Jangan pernah merasa
Kaulah yang istimewa
Bagiku kau lelaki biasa

Pandai berkata cinta
Tampan dan berharta
Kau pikir hatiku 'kan tergoda
Jangan samakan aku dengan gadis lainnya
Yang kau pikat dan kau jerat

Aku bukanlah gadis bodoh..lugu..
Bisa kau jadikan permainan
Kau sentuh
Kau cumbu

Janji janji yang kau beri
Janji janji jadi mimpi
Janji janji tak terbukti

Cintaku bukanlah sampah
Cintaku penuh rasa
Tak bisa kau buat seenaknya

Kau pikir aku bonekamu
Bonekamu..

Janji janji yang kau beri
Janji janji jadi mimpi
Janji janji tak terbukti
(tak terbukti)

Janji janji yang kau beri
Janji janji jadi mimpi
Janji janji tak terbukti
Janji janji
Janji

Janji janji..
Janji janji yang kau beri
Janji janji
Janji janji jadi mimpi
Janji janji yang kau beri
Janji janji..
Janji janji yang kau beri
Janji janji..
Janji..

ANOTHER ONE,

Belum sempat ku membagi kebahagiaanku
Belum sempat ku membuat dia tersenyum
Haruskah ku kehilangan ‘tuk kesekian kali
Tuhan kumohon jangan lakukan itu

Sebab ku sayang dia
Sebab ku kasihi dia
Sebab ku tak rela
Tak s’lalu bersama
Ku rapuh tanpa dia
Seperti kehilangan harap

Jikalau memang harus ku alami duka
Kuatkan hati ini menerimanya

i blog when SABRINA ask me to! HAHAHA

2010-03-05T11:18:00.001-08:00

here it goes.. i've been away from blogging since azizul hakim read my blog posts with many guys name in it.. im sorry.. thats past.. RIGHT SABRINA?? hahaha.. urmmm,, now im on my MC leave.. i've been given MC since last monday.. NOW EVERYDAY IS SUNDAY for me hehehe.. why??? BECAUSE i got this fever.. infected by my sister, izzah who is positive h1n1..

i dont have much to say. and i can see my english here and there is broken.. is it?? dang it!

aku rindu the children in Pusat Ehsan. they cherish every single day of my life.. sometimes i couldnt help bursting into tears when they approach me out of sudden and start hugging me and say 'i love you'.. i'd never imagine that its the best words that ever told to me. its sincerely from their heart. there are no kepura-puraan or whatsoever. its all so PURE. and they are all so caring.. if they see me unwell, they would ask 'teacher huda sakit? go hospital.' i'd be touched by that too yknow!

i've been considering from quitting my job due to many stress from the colleagues and so on BUT i just couldnt afford to leave the children.. they are so SPECIAL..

i just LOVE ALL ABOUT THEM!

her stories, xoxo

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

2009-12-07T06:19:00.000-08:00

DO you know that love at first do exist? i am but now i think it is more to LUST. how great it is if i still have JUKEY =/ ohh yeahh, i was just arrived home after my long lectures. the lectures tadi was fun. we had so much laughs. WELL, i love to laugh so yeah. tapi the scariest part is Ms. Bheng tarus2 testing our memory by asking the previous topics that she had taught. im part of the target pasal aku duduk dapan SEKALI!! eshhhh~

anyway, tadi masa ku datang class, i was alone. kawan2 ku balum datang lagi padahal akhir sudah tu eh. so i SMS this guy named JAY. i said "im bored~ =/" then he replied, "mana u cyg? cian jua..me dgdg plg nie..krg me kaja mlm..kul 10..ada roadblock." you're SO not going to know what i reply him hehe. so msg2, then ada tia Ms Bheng. so we stopped. the current guy that i like is JAY. i dont know why ah. tapi i like him the way he is. but lets see how it goes yeahh. pray for my happiness then (:

BACK for MORE

2009-12-06T23:17:00.001-08:00

WELL GUYS! im back. its been so long rightt? i know banyak sudah craving kan read my blog hehe now here you go. 3 jam lagi aku kan ke lecture ku which is Business Economics. i hate Economics actually tapi since the lecturer atu fun, im okay la juaaa. yg i hate the most is People & Organization's Lecture. boring AMAT. he just talk and talk for like 2 1/2 hours. banyak urg menguap non-stop ani wah haha GREAT JOB SIR EDWARD! and my other lecture is Marketing. it was so-so sajaa. this semester kami ada 3 sajaa and i heard next semester kami ada 4 which means we have to attend 4 lectures a week instead of 3. GILAAAA! bila tah ku kan rehat ne??

kamuuu~ aku banyak assignment aaa =/ and due date nya lagi 14th december ani =/ shooootttt~ its ruining my holiday waaa..

so hopefully aku dapat merit or even distinction for all the subjects. so that aku dapat scholarship lagi.

her story, xoxo

im blogging because im bored =/

2009-10-25T10:25:00.000-07:00

its 1:25am and im still wide awake. why? because i've slept for 4 hours masa patang. shoot~ i shouldnt sleep tadi. ohh yaaa, happy birthdayy once again to hafiizah mohammad. everywhere sudah ku mengreet ani haha sasak jua ia karang nee ;p kamuuuuu, help aku supaya aku tidur. payahh neeee. kan keraja lagi. bangun lagi awal. ani wahh mata ku aaaa~ =/

her story, xoxo

live,life and breath with me.

2009-10-17T08:51:00.000-07:00

updatess? yeahhh now hehe. first, aku sudah kerajaaa. im the asisstant physiotherapist ( rehab clerk) the job is very hard you know. ngalih jua kuu. i work weekdays from 8 am until 5 pm. breakfast, lunch and hi-tea is PROVIDED! isnt that great? inda keluar pun duitku. yata mun keraja aku inda bawa wallet. pasal recently ada kes. this mental problem girl, jadi pencuri. takut laa kami. haha. ohh i forgot. aku keraja di rehabilitation clinic di pusat ehsan al-ameerah al-hajjah maryam. in case kamu visit ke pusat ehsan, ke belakang saja kamu. arah buliding dapan dining hall. thats where im at.

and also, i've registering myself di cosmopolitan college of commerce and technology. ani yg buat ku stress ne. the process batah. start orientation 14th of november. tapi belum tah ada berita2 nyaa. sakit kepala ku mikirkan. i'll be doing HND in business management. not really my choice of career but what to do.

ohhhhh yaaaa, my job was AMAZING. i get to know many people. special people to be exact. i got many friendly and nicee working staff. they help me alot. i can spell out siapa yg udah ku kenal aa. pg datin, tuan hj, kamsiah, ruby, jasmin, nurul, ros, jun, uncle man, bazi, kris, marnel, noel, dianne, grace, shahrin, japar, see tong, loqman, eva, liyana, nabil, faiz, ahmadi, ali, salwa, didi, laila, KHAIRUL, dk mariani, chun gid, pascal, DARINA thecute girl yg slalu ku kipak hehe, the other khairul, shasha, fatin, yi zet, yean poh, aswani, rajeev, saiful, daniel, cgu jul, cgu zaharah, cgu saiful, cgu amal, cgu maria. ahhhhhh, atu saja yg ku ingat buat masani hehe.banyak kan?? baru 2weeks tu ku sana hehe.

MUMMY, pleaseeee bring me along! =/

2009-10-04T11:36:00.000-07:00

my mum plan december ani kan dangani my kaka ipar and her children visit my bro di uk. since nada urg lain lagi kan dangani aa. at first, mama suruh aku pulang. katanya kau saja dangani drg. but, aku manadapat tuuu!! 4 urg kaliah anaknyaa. and i cant walk in a long distances =/ i cant be jaga drg. eshhhhhhh cna aaa. aku mau ikut mamaku sajaa kali kata mamaku, mahal tuu. $6000 include izah. EHHHH inda ku kira wahhhhh. aku mau kami betiga juaaa. i dont want one of us saja yg dangani. inda jua siuk tuuu! kejam ehhh. abg along~~~~ plss sponsor our ticket =/

i have found the paradox that if i love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.

2009-10-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

my life lately is in a chaos. entah aa. sakit kepalaku sudah. my mum kan everyday sudah beceramah. and i just need to be sabar. im worry about everything wa mum.dont say i dont care about my future. i DO CARE but i just dont know how to work things out.

LOVE, nda tau ah still ada in me or not. wan,aqem, jukey! argghh jukey again =/ gila pakah. tadi aku ani arrange kan my folder arah lappy sekali terliat tia ku folder of me n him =/ kali ku view laa. then ku liat the pics. rindu ku trus. rasakan ku upload ke fb then buatkan display picture. apa mcm? haha i know you will say NO!!! haha so much for my wishful thinking eh?

ohhh, wan tadi rupanya ada msg aku tapi aku nda bawa hp. hp ku teroff pasal lowbet.dibawa pun useless jua tu kan. kali ia pajal jua.ia msg adiku. adiku show me the msg. "jah, aku ne si wan. suruh sihuda online" mula2 aku pikir, kenapa laa ia na msg aku ja trus kali bru ku ingat yg aku nda bwa hp haha.

btw, for this thursday and friday, my family will be having a farewell party. dua hari beturut-turut tu ah. pasal apa nahh? pasal my 1st brother ke uk to take his master for only 1 year. so for my mum, he's the 1st yg study overseas. ofcourse la ia ingau kan. smpai td ia buat kek batik waa.. 3 buting g tu haha. so my bro will be flying to uk onthis saturday. kesian bini and 4 anaknyaa.

her story, xoxo

6th day of rayaaaa!

2009-09-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

aku damam wahh kamu ehhh.. seriously! i felt so weak.. running nose bothers me alot.. payah kan tidur.. and also mesti setiap masa bawa sapu tangan haha.. mun kan pakai tissue, makin teruk tia selesma ku because of the bulu2(what did you call that?) haha antam ja lahh.. ohh tadi ptg aku pigang $30000 from my bro's punya duit.. and he gave me $1300.. excited hantap lahh ku.. kali kena bawa tia kami shopping ke mall.. mamaku balikan kain untuk raya taun dapan haha atu awal ;p and kami ke ego jua tadi.. bali baju-bajuan.. and suddenly aku teringat kan bali hadiah si wan haha.. so ku balikan lahh ia t-shirt yg betulis "bad boyfriend of the year" hahaah am i sarcasting? biar yaaaaa~ udah ku membayar ke cashier.. ku liat $184 wahhh balian kami ahhh.. mati ku membayar haha ;p kepisan ehh..

then lapas kami balik rumah, kami betukar baju raya nee pasal kan beraya arah rumah abg2 ku and cousinku.. sikit jaa tadi kami sampat..4 buah jaa.. nene purple kami aga tapi tidur yaa.. so inda tia dpt.. so thats all from me peeps (:

ohh btw, i might be going to shenzen this november hehe hopefully jadi lahh aa.. siuk tu ehh! hehe

her story, xoxo

4th day of rayaa..

2009-09-23T14:17:00.000-07:00

wahhh! i've been not blogging since forever haha.. banyak plg kn ku ceta ne.. satu2 lah aa.. first, aku cakap pasal si wan dulu la. i know sabrina is wanting so bad for me to tell her this hehe here you go..

masa last-last saturdayy, si wan asking me to meet him.. katanya sungkai di mall with him.. then i said, i'll be at kiulap tu pasal my cousin kan rebonding. kali katanya , bah manasaja tah. jumpa di kiulap sajaa.. ohh i forgot to tell you.. me and wan are couple ofcourse hehe.. then on the promising saturday, i couldnt come! nada transport.. so i msg him laa blablabla.. then he just reply by saying hmm bah.. from there start tia marah2

sekali ada one night ani.. idk when.. recently plg.. before raya atu kali.. he said, "i've decided to let you go.. after all, your nick tu pun macam kan suruh me let you go kan" then i said.. OK.. kali katanya, okay saja? lapas tu i said "you will never understands me" sekali ia cakap understand whatt? kali aku cakap nadaa.. then he said" what if i just wanna test you?" then i didnt reply.. trus ku block ia.. and then i warn nabil to say to wan yg aku nda online if ia tanya.. so thats it..

esuknya gatal jua tanganku atu kan online.. pasal kena msg, kena misscall.. tau jua ya salah atu kan.. sekali ada ya text. by saying hmm.. then i said "ah?" kali ya cakap im sorry.. i didnt mean to said that.. kali kataku ohhh ok then.. sekali ya cakap "kenapa? mcm banar2 saja kan mau me let you go? bahh mun cematu, inda me kacau you lagi nee.. me akan disappear from you.." then i said "sanang ahh bagi you cakap cematu.. sekajap cakap putus.. sekali kan mau goback sekali kan putus lagi.. you ingat me mainan? kajap mau kajap inda??" then he said " hmmmmm, awu bahhh.. im sorry syg.. iloveyou..me atu kecewa banar waa tane inda dapat jumpa ahh.. sudah taa payah2 kan jumpa.. tau tah me di kb and you dibandar.jumpa pun masa cuti ja.. anipun inda th you dpt.. kecewa jua me tu" kali i said " what do you want me to do? bekayuh kai perahu?? ehhh!.. sodahhlaaaa" then trus i blocked him hehe..

since then, malar ne kena msg, "cua online now" or just a misscall.. i ignore those.. bagiku hidup tanpa ia lebih aman.. so masa raya pertama, aku unblocked ia.. kali ya text me.. with "..." i was like wth?? then i just said what? then ya ckp selamat hari rayaa.. sekali ku balas la juaa. then text kami hanging until there.. kami inda tau kan text apa g.. so ia offline.. then esuknya, ia tagur aku macam biasa.. so we're back to normal tia balik.. idk how long this will going to be betahan.. i've coupled with him since november 2006 until now.. he knows me very well.. inside and outside.. he had been seeing me in every condition.. and yet still eager to meet me.. BUT then, my feeling for him macam makin kurang.. nada feel lagi.. ohhh i'll just see what happen next lah aa..

about rayaaaa~ so far so good.. tiring sajaaa.. as usual, kami open house for the two following days which is raya pertama and kedua.. ngaleh kuuu.. kaki ku sakit walking back and forth from kitchen and living room.. sini sana kan diuruskan.. ada jua laaa yg dtg atu which is alot.. pasal semua sudah berinform yg raya kedua my mum will be cooking her well-knowned soto.. so everyone cant wait for those.. cuba imagine.. dirumah kami ada 5 urg sajaa.. 3 women and 2 men.. mamaku lagi nda mau catering.. ia mau masak sendiri.. so malam raya atu sibuk jua ku tu.. bangun tidur trus kana suruh kupas bawang.. dri kul 1 wahh sampai kul 8pm ku ngupas bwg aaa!! esuknya aku selamat.. raya pertama atu ku bangun, tarus ready sudah makanan haha.. thats all from me kali.. ohh yess, lupaku.. today, aku kan beraya ke rumah iza, erna and dillah.. insya allah atu pun mun babuku jadi.. tadi ku tpun dah kali ya ckp ok plg.. tapi masalahnyaaa, si nazirul kan beraya ke rumah.. dari kemarin dah ya msg aa.. ia ckp ada ko dirumah ari raya ke-4? ramai ne ku bawaaa~ sorry.. haha kejam bunyinya anak aa.. nahhh ertinya nazirul awal dah book aku.. kesian jua tu kan.. yatah later la ku msg ia tnya kul berapa.. mudahan ja ptg or malam.. and yess, ia invite aku ke open house nya jua on this monday aa.. dtg kah inda aa =/

her story, xoxo

sepi ..

2009-09-16T13:51:00.000-07:00

this song really represents me well on what i feel now.. =/ so here it is

Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
namun ini hanya ada di bibir
di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban hidupku biarkan saja
Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semuaa
ku tetap diam

Woo.. sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

Oh.. ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam

her story, xoxo

the LONG exhausting day

2009-09-14T09:28:00.000-07:00

tadi i woke up at 12 since i havent sleep for the whole night atu juaa.. actually, i should have company keenah to go to salon to have her hair rebonding but then i have to stay at home pasal christy will be coming to my house to send all my order items including the one that my sis-in-law's item too.. so yeahh, keenah and ejoh awal jalan.. i think about 10 am.. and i will be going to get them with my friend diah who will be picking me up at my house at 2pm..

so at 2 pm, me and diah were heading to the salon to figure out whether they are done or not.. but unfortunately, balum siap ani wahh.. ku kira2 the length, it should be done jua sudah by this time.. so me and diah decided to go to qlap mall while keenah and ejoh still staying at the salon.. diah wanted to buy a heel for raya.. so we've been searching for like an hour by keluar masuk kadai.. ngaleh jua laa lehnyaa.. finally! ada juaa yg ia tepakai.. atupun ngaleh2 mencari bahhh whether atu made of kulit babi or not haha can you imagine kami mencari whether kasut atu dari kulit babi or not for the whole day! kata diah, to find out kalau atu kulit babi or not, liat the dots.. mun ada triple dots, iyatah tu! which is sampai ani aku masih inda paham haha..

actually aku sama diah ani takut escalator.. sekali kami ani kan turun bahhh from 1st floor to ground floor.. i suggest kami pakai escalator since tadi kami naik pun pakai atu kan! sekali kata diah ehh pakai lift sajaaa.. aku takut nee mun turun pasal tinggi aaa.. then i said tadi naik kenapa dapat?? sekali ia diam saja and forced me to use lift.. kali aku inda mau.. malas jua ku tu.. so kami on our separate ways laa.. aku pakai escalator and ia kai lift.. masa ku kan turun atu kan, terasa tia ku my leg shaking haha menyasal tah ku nahh inda mendangar cakap si diah but then ku beranikan lah sajaa..since aku dah halfway atu jua kan..

then, kami ke salon lagi to check done kah inda sudah drg ani since its 3.15pm sudahh.. kali panyaa BALUM JUA SIAP!! so kami angkut saja si ejoh and leaving si keenah alone haha astahh.. kali kami pun round2 bandar..

sekali aku suruh diah round gadong.. kali ia tnya "gadong arah mana?" kali kataku jalan sajaaa~ krg ku gtau.. after several minutes ia pajal2 ku gtau tiaaa.. kataku round McD jap.. bek jua si diah mauu!! tapi katanya " buleh tapi round blakang ja ne ahh.. mun dpan sampit aa.. takut kuu.." so kami round laa blakang.. i saw his car.. i can see that he adds some more stickers to his car.. bida tia plg~ tapi i didnt see him.. inda jua ku puas hati tuu.. so i beg diah to round dapan lagi.. pajal punya pajal mau tia juaa~ so masa kami round dapan atu, i saw jukey was running to the back.. keluar yaaa ke keritanyaa.. then kta diah "nah kan, syg saja ke dapan, di blakang tia plg.. ko atuuu bahh inda sabar td" kali kataku " bahh diah laju ke blakang balik.. lajuuuuu diahhhh.. plssssss"

kami pun kebelakang laa.. tapi i didnt get to see his face waa.. his figure sajaa.. masa kami smpai ke keritanya, ia sudah masuk ke McD balik aa.. arghhhhh just not my luck tah tuuu =/ I MISS HIM SO MUCH AND HOPE TO STARE AT HIS EYES AGAIN but then inda tia dapat.. then diah cakap " huda, kenapa kau buat cmane? nada ya ngatkan kau ne.. masih ko rindu ia ka? kenapa ko kan? wake up girl!! he's not coming back!!!!" how i wish i can cry on the spot i heard those.. tapi ku tahan sajaaa.. im so fucking STUPID..

HE'S NOT COMING BACK!!! WAKE UP!! thousand times sudah i hear this.. WHY?? pasal aku babal.. inda merati.. masih juaa kan ingatkan ia..

sekali kami balik semula lahh ke salon.. hoping that its done already.. and still UNDONE! katanya will be done for another 20mins.. padahal at that time its 4 sudah waa.. so we chatted in diah's car.. tunggu punya tunggu until pukul 6 baru tah siap.. haha gilaaaa.. inda batah ka tuuu??? so thats all from me.. this time post is way too long from the usual pasal banyak kan ku cakapkan hehe..

and yeahh, i forgot.. liza, my friend will be going to UK today!!! sad ku ehh.. but i'll do my best to come to the airport lah aa.. insya allah ('=

her story, xoxo

its been so long..

2009-09-13T10:20:00.000-07:00

pheww~~ 4 days sudah ne inda blogging.. kinda busy though or should i say exhausting? i've been thinking something lately.. pasal JUKEY, haha inda pandai abis jua ahh.. macam nada ending for this pain.. ohh GOSHHH, he's anywhere in my mind.. he's the only ghost that keep hunting me.. idk why.. i should've make him disappear in me BAHHH!!! huda, jgn majal bahh.. move on with your fucking LIFE! but i just cant wahhhh.. if there's someone who understand how i feel now.. pfft =/

and btw, my cousin keenah is having her sleepover at my house for like 3-4 days.. GILAAA! siuk jua tu! i've been missing her like forever!.. we gone wild, lucah and crazy mun betamu.. so now, kami masih bangun, cerita-cerita as usual and making jokes.. so till then peeps.. i think thats all from me today.. p.s : sabrina, im sorry i've been delaying to post something here like 3 days ago hehe couldnt afford to that.. banyak problems aa..

her story, xoxo

what a boring day

2009-09-10T06:10:00.000-07:00

today nothing big has happened.. unless aku ke giant saja this afternoon.. atupun company my aunt to withdraw money from the bibd atm.. after that i company her also to shop at giant.. maklum lahh kan raya ane.. macam2 dibalinyaa.. kaki saja inda tahan bejalan.. actually i hate going to supermarket when im broke.. pasal i really need to buy something if ku ke kadai.. so thats all.. boring jua tu kan? and i really havent start my study yet.. sebulan saja lagi!! sighhh -.-

her story, xoxo

holiday mode still

2009-09-08T19:18:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHH its been ages sudahhh aku jobless ani.. aku mau sekulahh!! aku mau scholar to be exact.. boring ku sudahh bahh dirumah ganya doing nothing ani.. i want to move on.. but idk how.. sakit sudah kepala ku mikirkan.. last-last ku bawa tidur haha.. i admit, lately ani im a sleepyhead sudahh.. sikit-sikit tidur maybe pasal nada lagi ada kan dibuat atu kali.. ADA EHH!! which is belajar for my november exam! SIAPA CAKAP NADA AA??!! hahaha yeahh rightt.. i have my syariah exam this november.. but not exactly nov.. its on the 13th of october.. si wan ada msg gtau the time table.. SIGHH.. one month to go jua tuu.. aku lagi inda pernah ambil syariah!! my family bising sudahhh.. "astahh, ngambil syariah tia plg.. inda pnah diambil.. blajarnya pun balum.. cana tah kan dapat".. ehhh kdg2 membagi luluh semangat kan belajar bahh mun cemani caranyaa.. always nee.. mun kan exam ada tia pengkritik atuu.. ada tia yg cakap " sayang saja duit ngambil exam, nda jua dapat2nya tuu.. pedah sajaaa.." SEE~ i aint got nothing because of the DOA.. thankyouu people.. satisifed now? PUAS?

kadang-kadang sasak ku bahh luan banyak abg ani.. ada 4!! fuhhh tapi sometimes siuk pasal penduluran jenisnyaa.. AND aku inda sangka my 1st and 2nd brother atu sporting.. durg inda kisah aku ada bf.. tapi drg sampaikan to kaka iparku laa.. haha inda ya berani tu cakap dapan2.. mun abgku ke 3 and 4 bahh jangan tahh duluu.. sakit saja telinga kana ceramahi.. my mum apatahh lagi.. nda ku pernah cakap aku ada bf.. ada sekali aku pernah gtau.. my 1st bf tuu.. just once.. apa lagi.. mamaku marah laaa.. so inda tia ku berani lagi gtau ia.. BUT, one day aku mau ehh gtau BUT just when im very sure he's the guy.. mun yg masani jgntah dulu ehh.. semuanya HANCUR..

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tiring day

2009-09-07T02:11:00.000-07:00

today, aku kena bangunkan awal wahh to company my mum ke pasar gadong.. it was at 10.45 tuu.. then lapas ke pasar, kami ke soon lee lagi di batu besurat ahh.. i was still sleepy tapi ditahan tah juaa.. we arrived home at 12.10 sudah then my bro bawa lagi kami jalan shopping di Hua Ho manggis.. otw ke manggis atu, kami melintas arah madang.. teringat tia ku rumah si JUKEY.. ohh him again =/ si iza sasak ne ku mention HIS name aa hehe..

sekali, sudah di Hua Ho, sorang2 ambil barang untuk dimasukkan ke trolley.. banyak lahh jua ku ambil.. one of it is pancake punya adunan and maple syrup.. emmm nyaman tuu! my bro ani kena bagi voucher $210 oleh standard chartered.. siuk jua kami memilih-milih tuu.. THEN, sudah time membayar, excess tia plg haha.. total semuanya $257.. so abg ku tepaksa tambah $47 laa.. actually if ikutkan our way of shopping yg selalunyaa, inda pulang sampai cematu tu.. selalunya $300plus bahh haha ani kami limit2 sikit pasal balum lagi terima bahh.. depend on the voucher jua saja kann.. THATS WHY today aku exhausted berabis sekali balik rumah aku membuat puding tia lagi haha mana inda ngalih tuu.. sekali macam inda menjadi tiaaaa.. apa tuu karas aa.. ehhh aku overcooked aa =/ inda tia nyaman ne ehh

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my day so far,

2009-09-06T08:02:00.000-07:00

makan-makan di lambak kiri

today was FUN! at first i refuse to go to my cousin's makan-makan pasal its sungkai bahh.. im not used to sungkai arah urg.. i find it bored -.- BUT i reluctantly go jua pasal my mum forced me to.. SO, my plan is i ask my mama angkat to force kinah too to come to the makan-makan haha so that i have my company.. hilang jua sikit boring kan.. so that was it! we arrived at the house at 5.50pm.. ramai sudah urg dtg.. panuh sudahh the kem.. while my mum searching for parking, ia suruh kami turun saja dulu.. eshhhh! mana ku mau nee.. banyak lagi laki-laki CUTEE! haha pacaahh..

as usual, when i arrived in a function, i'll be attracting attention which i hate it very much.. annoying bahh when everyone had to see you from head-to-toe.. so like i always did, aku pura-pura inda nampak urg.. i'll just walk straight hahhaa.. THEN, masa di kem, nampak tia ku si kinahh.. betapa bahgianya ku nampak ia haha tuhan ja tau.. kami pun cakap2 and joking around.. sampai tinggal aku, kinah and ejoh saja di kem ahh haha tapi riuhnya nauzubillah haha.. when we're together, begilaa tah kami tuu..

SEKALI kan, ada this guy in black cara melayu.. so cuteee~ namanya anip haha how do i know that?? pasal ada urg panggil ia so straight away kami tau namanya anip.. si kinah kambang pasal si anip liat ia tapi banarnya ia liat aku hahaha jk ;p eshhh our conversation nowdays inda lagi becensored bahh.. semua explicit sampai banyak betantangan.. the more funnier is when kinah cakap " ikan dalam aquarium atu sanang ya mandi wajib pasal ia dalam air.. baca niat saja sudah cukup" hahahaha and also about our plan to mengumbut pokok mangga hahahaa crazy much??

AHHH, tadi si atu msg aku sudah hehe atukan ia 3hari menghilang.. now appear lagi.. tapi when he appears, his 1st question will be "berapa creditmu?" astahhh! sometimes he really getting on my nerves..

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random much perhaps?

2009-09-05T16:35:00.000-07:00

OHHH i dont know why my mind keep saying i need to write another post.. i cant sleep and i cant do anything now.. idk why.. my mind seems so full of thoughts.. thoughts of love, education, future, friends, money, families.. arghhhh~ i need to calm down..

well, about love i seem to not find it yet eventhough there's someone who is willing to do anything for me and yet i still cant love him.. i think im just using him.. i feel guilty when he is the one who will spend lots and lots of money to pay for my topup cards every month.. am i a sinner of doing that? ohhh boy, im so sorry.. i didnt want your money but you are the one who always forced me to accept it and end up im the one who always say bahh manasaja tahh kau.. well, i've not hearing from you for about 3 days after you sending me the topup card number.. each time you sending me those, my guilty for you rosen.. how can you say im the bestest girl that you ever met since i've been taking lots and lots of your money for buying me things?? arghhhhh thankgod ia nada blog..

and yet, jukey's shadow still ada in me.. why jukey why?? its so easy for you to left me alone.. dont you remember when the 1st time you approach me? when the time you proposed for the 3rd time baru aku accept and you spoiled it in just less than a month.. they keep saying 'jukey is a player' BUT i still love him.. i still do until now.. pleasee..

someone had been saying this to me last night, "am i just a rebound for jukey??" i dont have the guts to answer it since i also dont know the answer.. im speechless.. i never knew he would say that.. i end up closing the conversation and go to sleep.. am i the one who always run when there's trouble ahead??

her story, xoxo

5th of september

2009-09-05T14:28:00.000-07:00

ahaaa!! i've just finish editing my blog.. kinda stressing but i have such a great friend who are willing to help me and assist me.. kudos to liza and iza hehe thankyou girls! you make my life easier..

last night,

erna, iza, ejoh and me break our fast at ideal.. the food was so nice until everyone finishing their meals so fast with less talking haha maybe its because we're really starving.. im so happy when im with them.. its just the moments that i will treasure.. then we continue hanging out at my house for about 1 hour since erna want to wait until her families finished their terawih because she don't want to be alone in her house.. after all, i would say last night is wonderful (Y)

OHH WAIT, i still cant forget about jukey.. idk why =/ i know he's a fool but i dont think this feeling will vanish until im ready to let him go far far away from me.. its very hard to do that anyway..

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help me in changing the blogskin -.-

2009-09-04T11:48:00.000-07:00

eshhhh! balum tah ku pandai-pandainya kan menukar skin nyaa aa.. kan ditanya urg inda dpat because its too late already.. everyone is happily sleeping now i suppose -.- and idk why i still awake.. maybe because of this blogging thingy that makes me wide awake.. ohhh sigh, bila tahh betukar ne skin ku aa..

new in blogging

2009-09-04T08:51:00.000-07:00

ohh my -.- this is my 2nd blog already and im still not fully know how this blog works.. weird me i guess haha.. idk why im doing this blog again.. maybe its because almost all my friends are doing so and im not gonna be left behind rightt? hehe so thats all from me